A Blessing in Disguise

This night, I just witnessed a not-so-comforting scenery, a kind that I never experienced before in my life.

Lying there, two naked bodies, one of them belongs to my ex-lover. We just officially broke up less than a month. The other naked body is his best friend. A girl-friend.

My immediate reaction to the event was: holding my smile and laughter from bursting. It was funny for me that four years of insecurity and curiosity turned out to be true.

I’ve been there, guessing and crying; is there something between my boyfriend and his girl-friend?

Of course, he always said no. He said there was never a time that the two of them involved in any romantic activity.

It was hard to believe at first, but I immediately believed in him. I believed that there would never be anything inappropriate between them. I even tried to treat her as one of my bestfriends too.

And then this night came. A moment of truth that I see as a blessing.

It shines a light to all my questions in the past about them. About the possibility of my partner’s infidelity.

I remember asking my self back then: “what if one day I come home to our place and find him laying naked with another girl? What would I do?”

Apparently, tonight, what I did was smile and said “hi”. Well, practically, he’s not my boyfriend anymore since about two or three weeks ago. So, I don’t think I should say anything more than “hi” and “sorry, I’m here to take my laundry.”

But then, it’s 4 in the morning and I’m having a hard time trying to sleep. The scene is spiralling in my mind, leaving a mixed feeling between disgust and relief.

However, still, no matter how bitter it is, a truth still counts as a blessing. Especially the one that you witness with your eyes. I thank God and the universe for this valuable lesson and experience. I realize that this is the kind of blessing that will help me grow wiser and be ready for the bigger and more important lessons to come.

Thank you, I’m blessed.